taking things slow and easy.
there's different kind of sayings.
guys want girl to be independent, it's logical because they cant spare every single second to be at her attention. but have they even spare a thought at HOW to let a girl be independent. somehow, i see more and more girls have become convienence products, easily sought for and of cos' easy disposal. Men have to LET girls GAIN independent. They themselves know what the world isnt gonna change with their plain words right? we humans just set unrealistic expectations of one another, thus we can never be satisfied.
another thing, when we girls have to say something to guys. we want to have a heart to heart talk. for me, its drastic-ly TOUGH, near impossible. i supposed i cant get a heart to heart talk cos i wouldnt know what answer will i get. get what i meant?
mr bear isnt reading my blog. i guess i can say what i want hereeee. sometimes, i dont know when is the time to call him? is he free enough to talk to me? does he wants to talk to me? why isnt he calling me? all the whys, does, not, yada yada seriously cracks my brain to a weenie meatball.
sometimes, if i wish i have the guts to say the things i want to say to him and hope he doesnt mind. seriously, people takes things differently and i'm not gg to know how he's gonna take it? negative or positive or he doesnt even care? i guess he does, just not that much and assumed i can already be on my own, now that i am a BIG 19 GIRL.
i guess it is every plain jane dream to be pampered by their boyfriends, even if by words they dont meant. we always think it's too much to ask for from them.
Men wouldnt change for you for christ's sake. they are just the way they are. at fights, you always come to think that you cannot blame him cos he JUST LIKE THAT? but why he can change or accomodate to people he mixes with. we are all different people and have different needs, cant simply apply the same logic and way you treat people.
sigh, im seriously not in the right state of mind. this is not the time to get upset. i am off to chill with my friend.
i miss my boyfriend and wish you keep me sane.
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